The Queasy Bits

I had an English Alexander teacher who often talked about perservering through what she called the "queasy bits”. The "queasy bits" are those moments when you feel shaky because things are changing and you don’t really understand what's happening to you; you've done your best to apply some aspect of Alexander's discoveries but you are not sure about the results. At those moments we tend to panic and run back to our old ways of doing and feeling things because then at least we know what to expect.

The next time you apply one of Alexander's discoveries and don’t try to escape from the state of not knowing; don’t try to come up with an answer that will explain things so that everything makes comfortable sense. Instead, stick with that anxious energy and allow it to relax and soften you. Softness leads to openness and openness is the ground from which new experiences can sprout. Those uncertain "queasy bits" are usually an indication that things are changing for the better. So, when you feel a little unsure about what's going on, let the newness of that moment blossom and then see what what happens.